Still Sick

I am still so incredibly sick so I don’t really care about keeping up with my to-do lists.  Of course, I’m still keeping them but there’s not much on them.  Basically, it’s just the bare minimum of what I have to do during any given day.

Went to Rodeo rehearsal last night.  Finished the dance doused in sweat and not energy at all.  My energy is low today as well and, as soon as I get home tonight, I’ll be going to bed.

My diet’s going great!  I’ve lost 5 pounds since this time last week.  Of course, I haven’t been eating more than a couple of calories a day, just to keep me going, but I’m losing tons of weight.  Hopefully it’ll be something good that comes out of all of this.

YAGP was the high drama experience that it always seems to be.  This one ended up alright, but started out rough.  By then end of the first day I was ready to fight someone.  In fact, I think that’s what made me sick.

During her classical solo, Elissa’s music messed up 3 times so, basically by the time that she was able to perform it in full, she was completely freaked out wondering what was going to go wrong next.  She pushed through like a pro but I knew as soon as I saw it that she wasn’t at her best.  She was wobbly on her turns and her lack of confidence was like a neon sign.

Her contemporary solo went well but it was short and the choreography on it is different than most so the judges misinterpreted a lot of it.  Her teacher was pleased with it so for me, that’s the most important thing where that dance is concerned.  In the future, we may want to have her dance a contemporary choreography that’s more palpable to the massed but this year she really needed a bonding experience with her teacher and an opportunity to let her freak flag fly.

By Saturday I was already getting sick but still had Rodeo rehearsal.  The girls went ahead up to YAGP while I practiced.  I wasn’t really planning on meeting them up there but then I got an email from Dana that they were going to let Elissa do her classical solo again.

I ran home from rehearsal, changed out of my sweaty clothes and headed up there to watch.  I made it just in time and she performed it very well.  She’s not yet at a point where she’s the best in her class yet, but she’s getting there fast and I was very happy with what I saw.

Sunday was just ensembles.  I don’t really care for any of the ones that she’s in this year so the stakes were lower but still I watched.  Once they were over we left.

Both the kiddo and I thought that Dana didn’t want to go to the awards ceremony so we went out to eat instead.  We later found out that she did but all indicators were pointing to a big NO in the moment.  After diner I went home and slept till morning.

Overall, I’m happy with 2019 YAGP.  Of course, it could have gone better but I’m glad that actions were taken to help make the experience right for both us and our kid.  Honestly, this is the first time since transferring to this school that I felt like we’ve been afforded the same graces as everyone else.