Busy but Better

You know, I’m pretty happy about this weekend.  I wasn’t perfect.  My calorie intake was above what it should have been most days and I did have some alcohol but I didn’t fail as spectacularly as I did last weekend.  I think my resolution to track my progress and be completely honest with myself for the first month of the New Year is helping me to slowly bring myself in line with where I want to be.

It was a busy weekend so I set the bar pretty low for what I wanted to accomplish and, as you can see, I managed to tick everything off.  My oil still needs to be changed and my pool needs a cleaning pretty bad but there’s only one of me so I’m trying to be realistic and get to what I can.  Even with this pared down list, I was busy almost the whole time.

On Friday and Saturday I had Rodeo rehearsals.  I feel like I’m making progress with it but man is it eating up a lot of my free time.  I have rehearsals tonight, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday of this week so really my only free day to do the pool or tile is going to be on Tuesday (Dana and I have a standing date night on Thursdays) but Tuesday my mom’s best friend is supposed to stop by so who knows if I will be able to get to anything.

After rehearsals on Saturday we headed out to Houston for Elissa to audition for some summer intensives.  It was a strange trip in that I really didn’t see much of the city and spent most of it just waiting on her with Dana in the lobby.  It wasn’t a bad trip but also not a very productive one on my end.  Hopefully it bears fruit for Elissa.

The important thing is, I’m not mad at myself after this weekend.  True, I’m disappointed in some of my decisions but I think that true change (at least for me) comes in a series of small iterative steps towards getting better and I can see myself moving slowly in that direction. Hopefully I can keep changing and have less things to be disappointed about and more things to celebrate during my hectic days.

EDIT - I kind of wanted to highlight a small moment from the trip that stands out in my head as being a very good memory.

We'd gotten in to Houston on Saturday somewhat later than we wanted to due to my Rodeo rehearsals and everyone was hungry.  Dana and the kiddo wanted to go swimming so, while they checked out the pool, I went out in search of food.  Down the street I saw a Whole Foods and, since we needed some groceries as well, I went in to see if I could kill two birds with one stone. 

In the store, they had a buffet set out with various foods you could box up and take with you.  Most of it was stuff that I knew our daughter wouldn't eat but I did find some roast chicken so I grabbed a piece for all of us and then got the rest of our groceries.

When I got back to the room, the girls were disappointed because the pool had been so crowded they couldn't swim but we all sat around, eating chicken from a box, and talking and joking with one another like everything was perfect.  It was a little moment.  Just the three of us sitting in a not great hotel room eating chicken from a box.  Nothing had gone according to our plans but still, we were happy.