Today has been crazy busy at work so I’m not sure how long
this entry will be. I’ll probably just
write on it when I can and update it whenever it feels complete. There wasn’t anything important that went on
yesterday, just a lot of unimportant things.
Oh Wait… I guess that’s
a lie.
Elissa got accepted into the Tampa program so now we have a
real horserace on our hands. The
Nashville Ballet is a true company program but the Tampa School teaches Balanchine,
which could lead to a gateway to SAB. She
wants to go to SAB so it would make sense for her to go there but at the same
time, many former dancers we’ve talked to speak highly of the Nashville Ballet
and also, they have a reputation for promoting from within. Of course, there’s still Bolshoi coming up
next weekend so we don’t have the complete picture but as of now, Tampa and
Nashville are to two frontrunners.
I’m afraid that there’s going to come a moment when my girls
look at me and ask me which one I would prefer her going to and, as of now, I
don’t have an answer. In my gut, I like
the Nashville program but I’m also aware that Elissa doesn’t have strong
Balanchine training and the Tampa program would provide that possibly opening
up a gateway to SAB. I like both but my
heart is in Nashville and there’s really no good reason for it except that they’ve
made their process more painless than any other and they were the first to want
her.
I didn’t make myself a very challenging list for yesterday
but that doesn’t mean I wasn’t busy. Did
grocery shopping at lunch, came home after work and cooked for everyone, went
to Rodeo rehearsal (ouch), and then home to fold clothes. It was definitely a busy day but I never
really felt overwhelmed. I did however,
get really sad when I went to lay down after Rodeo and saw that there were
still clothes to be folded.
The rehearsal times were posted wrong for Rodeo so I had
about 30 minutes to kill before we started.
Spent that time just talking with the other dads and the ballet
director. I felt good talking to them
all (not common) and it was nice. I
think the rigor of this experience is giving us all a sense of mutual respect
for one another. Not sure how long it
will last (as that place has a ruthless pecking order) but it’s nice right now.
It got cold overnight so the dog had to sleep inside. Of course he cried and barked and of course I
got up in the middle of the night several times to scold him. It all makes me feel terrible. I feel badly for scolding him and I feel
badly because I’m not sleeping. He used
to not be this way and now this has been the norm for almost 4 months and it doesn’t
appear to be stopping.
Tonight, I have very few plans. Of course, I will have enough free time to
tile, but I’m so sore and beat up from Rodeo that I just don’t want to jump
headfirst into another intensive and painful task tonight. I’m essentially taking the evening off. I will take the trash out, help with the
clothes, pick up whatever needs to be picked up, get the kid from dance
tonight, and whatever else I need to do but I’m not going to tile. Instead I’m going to use that time to play
video games and I’ll probably feel guilty about it the whole time.
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