I Should Just Give Up

This is the part where I give up and stop trying.  I mean, that’s sort of what I feel like doing.  That’s why I’m glad that I committed to doing this for a month.  No part of me wants to be recording what I eat, watching what I spend, or even writing this stupid blog entry but I promised myself I would do this every day of the working week for a month and I’m not about to abandon such a tiny commitment just because it’s annoying.  A month is so short these days.

Another wasted night with too many calories consumed, too much beer, and too late a bedtime and now my weight is actually ABOVE where I started.  To top it all off, I didn’t get shit done yesterday because of an surprise Rodeo rehearsal so yes, I’m feeling real frustrated.

Of course I have only my self to blame for most of this and I realize that.  I’m thinking that I probably have an alcohol problem and if I can’t stick with healthier consumption habits next week, I need to just walk away from it entirely.  I’ve done that before during crash diets and times when I really needed to get my shit together and have always been rewarded with feeling great after a few days. 

Maybe I should just go ahead and do it anyway.

This weekend we go to Houston so the kiddo can dance.  I’m looking forward to the drive (surprisingly) but not the time away from my obligations at the house.  I really need to get that tiling done, not to mention cleaning the pool, and getting my oil changed.  I’m pretty sure I’m going to have to write off the tile until after this performance is done and just stick to things that absolutely have to be done.